When I used to work as a full time journalist in Morocco, I loved to have my vacation time during the month of Ramadan. My mom and I would go early in the morning to our neighbourhood mosque for the Fajr prayer. The early breeze used to make me feel so blessed, walking while holding my mom's hand and trying our best to be among the first to arrive in order to avoid praying outdoor.
The same used to also happen two minutes after Iftar, we would almost run to our mosque and recite the Qur'an until the Isha' prayer, then perform the Taraweeh.
Many used to tell me that I wasted my days off, that I should take summer time to travel, but trust me, being off during Ramadan was a blessing.
When I moved to Morocco, things started to slightly change, then, some years and two kids later, it became almost impossible for me to go to the mosque for Taraweeh.
My kids are 10 and 8 now, and this Ramadan feels so promising to me. I may not be able to go to the mosque early in the morning, or even perform Taraweeh there every night, but this Ramadan, I'm promising myself to be the declaration I made - to myself- some days ago. To just be there for my loved ones without trying to control or anticipate, without expectations of high performance; to just be there, loving and accepting without judging - lending a hand when my help is needed and trusting when a need for independence is requested.
I already feel lighter, just thinking about me being that way, and I need you ladies to pray for me to achieve this goal.
The same used to also happen two minutes after Iftar, we would almost run to our mosque and recite the Qur'an until the Isha' prayer, then perform the Taraweeh.
Many used to tell me that I wasted my days off, that I should take summer time to travel, but trust me, being off during Ramadan was a blessing.
When I moved to Morocco, things started to slightly change, then, some years and two kids later, it became almost impossible for me to go to the mosque for Taraweeh.
My kids are 10 and 8 now, and this Ramadan feels so promising to me. I may not be able to go to the mosque early in the morning, or even perform Taraweeh there every night, but this Ramadan, I'm promising myself to be the declaration I made - to myself- some days ago. To just be there for my loved ones without trying to control or anticipate, without expectations of high performance; to just be there, loving and accepting without judging - lending a hand when my help is needed and trusting when a need for independence is requested.
I already feel lighter, just thinking about me being that way, and I need you ladies to pray for me to achieve this goal.
"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right-doing, there is a field. I will meet you there." -Rumi
JAK my beloved Farah. Your words resonate deeply within me. I echo your sentiments to surrender our love, compassion, empathy to Almighty in every actions we take, small or large, in the mosque and beyond. Iqbal
ReplyDeleteThat would be great if we all could do the same, and try to accept the different "other" without judging..
ReplyDeleteThank you!
May God give you strength for this holy month bless you and your children
ReplyDeleteI love reading your articles :) I sent it to Sarah too.
ReplyDelete" To just be there for my loved ones without trying to control or anticipate, without expectations of high performance; to just be there, loving and accepting without judging - lending a hand when my help is needed and trusting when a need for independence is requested."
It's kind of hard sometimes but it's definitely possible.
Happy Ramadan chere farah :)
Saloua Elmoufti Alaoui
this is my foullati,.....
ReplyDeletelove you, proud of you.......
loulou